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Happy Chinese New Year 2012 =)

2012-01-24T23:30:00.000-08:00

My niece, she's playing with us isn't she adorable=)

Me & Sister @ day 02=)

Me & Sister @ day 01=)

Me & Daddy<3

Daddy & Mummy<3

Sister & Daddy=)

Me & Mummy<3

All the angbaos i collected.

Steamboat at mum's =0

Lunch at mum's side, ah ma's cooking was awesome.

My fav snack by my grandma:Fried sliced crabstick=)

Steamboat on the eve=)

Had an awesome chinese new year this year, went to reunion dinner at dad's side on the eve, first day went back & 2nd day went to mum's side. Actually is always the same every year but this year seems to be enjoyable? Anw collected angbaos, got nagged at a bit & the rest still goes on? I should say actually this year is also like a lazy new year? I'm like feels so lethargic & sleepy all the time but i still enjoyed myself nevertheless. Okay not gonna say so much, but gonna post up pictures of this year's CNY. ENJOY=)

Friends?

2012-01-21T01:50:00.000-08:00

Had an open talk with him today, i know what his fears are and he knows what my fears are. Apparently i fall at the wrong timing & i guess we met at the wrong timing? Is like if we had met later maybe things might work out between us.

I remembered his promise i don't know how long he will keep with them, i choose to believe in them although is really hard for me to trust a guy but i can't ignore what happened between the 2 of us in this past few weeks. Sometimes i want to ignore him, run away and have a quiet time on my on, but i can't never ignore him for long somehow & i believe even if i go missing somehow it won't be long.

We agreed to stay as close sisters for now, & see how things goes on as we get to know each other longer. I feel so tired i don't have the strength to think so much anymore, maybe always let natural takes it course is the best solution for everything...

Happy 2012, birthday to Me & Sofie

2012-01-15T03:04:00.000-08:00

All the gifts & cards i received thank you everyone=)

The gift by workmates & boss (Kari Bin Lim) ( My son??) Love it so adorable=)

The chocolate fudge cake that we shared=)

A pic with my H sofie heh=)

Blowing the birthday cake with sofie=)

The kissing scene?? LOL As usual requested by the ICs.

The group photo=) Almost all ICs are present.

We cutting cake together=D (More like they see us as cutting wedding cake-.-

Me & sofie was forced to feed each other-.- we are considered "married" that afternoon.

Have not been blogging for quite sometime, first of all HAPPY NEW YEAR aka 2012 people=) I know it have been like 2 weeks since 2012 have arrived & i'm late in posting, while have been really too busy with my internship & also some other commitments. Nevertheless gonna post now just a brief update of the first few happenings in 2012.

After happy new year, what will be next? Happy birthday luh to me & sofie hehe=) I'm 19 this year (i feel damn damn old sio) & darling sofie is 20 this year (opps did i just expose his age?) Haha anw like of course spend my birthday working since it falls on a friday, & is considered part of my school IEP hours. I received a lot of surprise & i feel really blessed & happy, one of the really best year of birthday that i ever had the days went pass fast & cheerfully. Sat is sofie's birthday so nice right? He's born on the 14th of jan while i'm born on the 13th of jan, but he's one year older than me haha. Didn't know the ICs & Donny planned a surprise for me & Sofie & we thought SMO was having a black-out (How dumb can both of us get.__.) They brought cake for us & for me who never blew candles for 6 years, manage to blow one this year but with sofie hehe=) I shall post up pictures & update you guys what's going on.

Had a great year when i know so many people while working at AMM, esp if i don'nt know if the right one is coming or not=/ (we shall see) Also thank you everyone for all your wishes, cards & presents=) Finally Happy 2012 to everyone, may this year be a great one. Happy 19th birthday & 20th birthday to me & soso aka sofie hehe=)

Can never get anything done

2011-12-29T23:32:00.000-08:00

It have been weeks since i worked, most likely i should already know what to do, get it done well & so that everything will run smoothly, but somehow i'm always screwing things up & make a mess out of everything. Being an intern i can never help much in admin work which i should, & everytime i'm given a job somehow i don't know why things will screw up & also i can never handle it well. I always shoot out something which i shouldn't & make people angry, sometimes i really hate myself so much that i feel like slapping myself in the face, nothing bloody nothing in the world i can do right staff deployment i'm too slow, distribution i can screw up the number of audio gudies, staff not cooprtative ticketing i can have problems & almost everywhere i go, something wrong will always happened.

Felt so screwd up not only at work, but also my family life, always having money issues which will in turn argue with my mum, & sometimes it affect my mood & will in turn screw up my work, which i don't want to but what can i do? I never want to argue with her at all? It's just i can't seems to do what she's pleased & i have my own way to do things which she doesn't like. No matter how much i try my best things will still screw up, & seriously can't take it anymore am i such a failure in life? I'm only 18 i should be good at most of the things i do, not so screwed up at everything right?? Same goes for my relationship is like i have nothing to say just one word: SUCK & is ttm. Looking at him i don't know what to do, i failed in so much things in life, when i'm only 18 seriously how the fuck am i gonna continue my entire life, when i still have so much more road to continue walking? Will i fail for my entire life? I don't want to you know? Maybe i should seriously consider what & how am i gonna continue my life journey...

Old Airport Road & Berrylite

2011-12-24T10:10:00.000-08:00

Met up with Abi, Sean & Stanley for dinner at old airport road supposed to meet them at 7pm, but was damn late due to some issues sorry guys for making you all wait for me for so long. Walked to the hawker at old airport road and had a bit of problem finding seats, but managed to in the end & the ordering of food is landed on me & Abi haha. Ordered corckels, BBQ prawn & Squid, fried oyster omelet, spicy kangkong & of course their famous tauhuay. Food came all of us was like damn hungry & we dig in without waiting like a glutton, went to berrylite at parkway after dinner as usual wihile on the way there i'm being targeted & "bullied" by dear sean & stanley-_- Reached berrylite and stanley treated us yogurt with 3 different toppings heh=) Had a cam wore over there, joking about lots of things & spent a quality time there, after that head home with abi as we took 76 to paya lebar while sean crossed opposite to bus back to bedok, stanley waited for his friend who is on duty today & they went home together. Abi thanks for the Christmas card you gave me, i feel so touched by what you wrote thanks so much<3Anyway i had a great time with the 3 of them, and i hope we will be able to meet up soon again, i shall let the pictures do the talking till then=)

Out with Mu Lan & Yu Xin

2011-12-20T23:48:00.000-08:00

Had a shopping trip with mu lan & yu xin today, was supposed to meet them at 12 but i overslept & was late. Sorry guys=( I guess i'm too tired that's why i can't seem to wake up.

Took the train to bugis & i had a quick lunch takoyaki with ice-cream milktea, then accompany mu lan & yu xin for their new year clothes shopping trip. I got myself a new nail polish colour, nail buffer & also a pink monkey t-shit, I don't know why i brought pink but it's not very pinkish and i loved it alot=) Head over to orchard after the shopping trip & i must say mu lan & yu xin brought quite a number of items haha=) Shopped around and of course buying of even more stuff, finally we all are too tired ended up taking 105 back to jurong east & change to 333 to head home.

I missed the times where only 3 of us went out and called as taozii again, i know the name sounds stupid luh but is part of my memories & they are all my best friends=) Shall post till here & upload some pics till then=)

Sick

2011-12-11T23:57:00.000-08:00

Worked in the office & chiong ppt till 10 plus everyday last week, and work non-stop for the past one week. Results? Fell sick=(

Cried at SMO yesterday because too much things going around me, stress that i won't do well for IEP, stress that DSG will be screwed up, worry that not enough coordinators to work, when so many of us falling sick, worried that i will screw up the event when i work as an IC, thinking about a non-ending problem when i'm stuck in that bloody situation. So many happening at one go i can't take it anymore, lost the strong me ever since i got my Os result 2 years ago. I don't mean to dwell on it, espically since i'm graduating soon when 2 years pass by so quickly. I notice that my strong personality is being eaten away bit by bit, ever since i turn 17? The results? The relationship? Poly issues? So much to add on i know i shouldn't be complaining because there are people put there who are worse off then me, but yea i admit that i lost i can't take it anymore. I have to work harder to polish myself if not how am i gonna face even greater challenges next time in life, when i can't even take such small set-backs? Guess learning to embrace problems, solve & tackle it are one of my priorities in my entire life hope i won't take too long to master this skill.

Now trying to rest as much as possible and to recover soon, hate to fall sick been falling sick a lot this year, maybe too much things already hope next year won't be the same?

2nd week of an intern life

2011-12-05T02:16:00.000-08:00

Basically this week i can only say horrendous-.- Is a super busy week where i'm going home like at least 8pm daily? A lot of work to be done & really operations is a huge hole with so many things that needs to be filled up, it's really almost endless and suddenly new & more things starts to pop out, but i'm learning a lot so i'm really quite happy regarding that.

I hope to slim down while i work as an intern as the stress level is like a halehluya, but i think i'm gaining weight-_- Know why? I'm not only having dinner late, i'm having all the unhealthy fast food, also with my 20% discount i keep having small middle breaks, while doing my work so as to distress. With my heavy intake of breakfast recently, due to the shopping center opposite my work place so you can see why i'm fat uh. My event is starting soon with the OC on tuesday so gonna work doubly hard, & make sure i won't screw up.

Till here then=) See you soon^^

Week 01 Of Attachment

2011-11-27T02:18:00.000-08:00

One week have passed for my attachment at singex so far so good i guess? Like all my teammates are all quite friendly & also both my supervisor are quite nice people, they really make our working environment very conducive and i really learn quite some operations stuff from both donny & stanley my 2 supervisors. Went to sitex to promote my event AMM for thursday and the other days were basically spent on meetings & office work, i got my working pass from them also which makes me feel like a real worker there.

Shall post some pictures about my work till then=)

Titanic The Artifact Exhibition

2011-11-20T02:00:00.000-08:00

Went to the titanic artifact exhibition today with abi, alex & min, at the singapore art science museum. I must say it's really a great time spent and the exhibition is totally worth our 20 bucks on it. Met the 3 of them at promenade mrt station at 12 but yeas as usual was a bit late, and with a bit of miscommunication i ended up at exit b and all 3 of them at exit a-.- But manage to meet and we proceed to marina square to have our lunch at just acia.

After lunch, went to walk around a bit and brought myself a portable charger which cost me 30 bucks:'( But somehow i feel it's worth my investment it's with seaside prints & i'll take good care of it=) Okay back to topic seems to drag off already, so as we continued to walk to MBS, we reach the singapore art science museum, and brought our tickets while we proceed to the museum.

We were all given a boarding pass upon entry and they enabled the names of all the passengers & crew's name on board, so you will see who you got and you can check if you made it and survived the shipwreck at the end of the exhibition. A little information of my character:

My name is Mrs Harvey Collyer (Charlotte Annie Tate) Age: 31 on board Titanic with my husband: Mr Harvey Collyer & Marjorie Harvey Collyer (8 month old daughter) Our family hope to go to New York & cure my tuberculosis & start a new life there & to buy a fruit farm. I survived the shipwreck with my daughter, but my husband died.

So as you can see i made it and survived but my husband did not, so i can experience & feel the pain of her when i'm looking at list of survivals and lost. Is really like i lost him and i'm panicking as i'm looking for his name and hoped that he's saved. While going through all the exhibits, i experience titanic from it's sculpturing, launching, maiden voyage & to the hitting of ice-berge & drowning. Also the difference of the different classes of living conditions and also, the building interior and basically almost everything of titanic i felt so real and the experience is really awesome. I read stories of passengers and i really felt upset for all those life lost in this shipwreck, that happend almost a hundred years ago i can just feel as though i'm on board with all the passengers...

It's forbidden to take photos inside the exhibitions thus i don't have any of the photos inside the exhibitions, is only some that we manage to take as part of our trip, i'll let the pictures do the talking and is really a great experience everyone should have a go at it and experience it, i won't mind going for a second round, it's really a must-go experience.

Leaving For Singnex Attachment

2011-11-17T21:13:00.000-08:00

Will be leaving for attachment at singapore expo soon next monday, i must say time really flies and yes it's so soon that is the last sem of my last year in my I.T.E course, i don't know where will i be going, poly? work? I guess i will have to see how and where my gpa brings me to.

When the time comes that i really have to leave, i feel real sad, recalling the past one year plus where from the start we are all strangers, feeling awkward weird to now where we are all close even though, sometimes we have conflicts in-between us and even when i feel annoyed too heh. But everyday spent is really a precious time and memory for all of us i guess?? I will really miss the class while in my attachment, and hope that all of us will be able to meet soon...

Reflections @ Bukit Chandu

2011-11-10T22:58:00.000-08:00

Off day from classes and school yesterday so went out myself as usual, long wanted to go to the war memorial at bukit chandu up the opium hill at pasir panjang. Since the circle line opened is a one great chance for me to visit there, have to find my way around myself as usual manage to find it from the bottom of the hill, but i wnet like OMG serious uh?? Like a so wulu and no cars & human at all while i'm going up to opium hill, but manage to find it at the top and i understand why war happened there 60 plus years ago.

Had a really fruitful trip, maybe because i am a history lover haha nevertheless i learned even more facts about what happened during world war 2 and how life is really hard during the period of terror, also i really admired the heroes who sacrificed their life in order to fight to the last breathe. It makes me wonder if i'm in their shoes, will i be able to make the same sacrifice? Or would i be afraid of dying horribly? Well i guess i will only know the answer myself if i'm really in their situtation. *Which i hope not. World Peace yea* Okay shall let the pictures do the talking then, enjoy viewing them and maybe you might want to visit this place, when you are free is really worth your time and it makes you understand more about Singapore's history=)

Bah Ku Teh / Dessert & Minds Cafe

2011-11-06T23:49:00.000-08:00

Went out with Abi, Min, Marilyn, Sean & Vick yesterday we went for bah ku teh first, it was quite an ordeal when we are trying to find the bah ku teh store at balister. Missed busstops, no cab ended up we land in boon keng so in the end we decided to just forsake that store, & went ahead to clarke quay instead since we are at the purple line already.

Finally we reach another bah ku teh shop, settled down ordered the food & we all started eating like free espically since all of us din have any breakfast and is all hungry, after the meal marilyn came to join us we walked to chinatown & head for dessert is really awesome shall go down & visit it one day heh=) Then marilyn & vick parted with us as they have to go off already, so me, sean, abi, min & stanley we decided to head to minds cafe to chill & play games we opted for the 3 hours slot till 8 spent an awesome time there as we played all sorts of games, & all those cheating methods that we made haha=) Finally dinner at just acia & we all head home for the night.

Shall type till here & let the pictures do the talking. =) WARNING: QUITE A NO. OF PICS SOME EXTREMELY TEMPING=)

Past Week / Past Few Days

2011-11-01T22:21:00.000-07:00

It should be labeled as a late post suppose to update this post last week, or you can say a few days ago but somehow just din manage to have the chance to do it so well here it is my late post.

Been out the past few days be it school, field trips, shopping went to town & fort canning park.

Met up with vic on wednesday went to town for a shopping trip and also a visit to the istana, ended up stuck in a downpour-_- like a hilarious right?? But we really enjoyed ourself=)

Met up with jemmy on thurs evening for shopping in town again, and also dinner with her is like a almost or half a month since i last saw her missed her like crazy, of cuz as usual we had a great time again, as i update her about how i feel towards him haha jemmy is always great in giving me advice. Had class outing with the class at fort canning park as usual it was an enjoyable one, we all had fun and i really treasure my time with them when somemore this is the last sem with them.

Shall post till here falling sick recently with a dry cough & bad throat shall let the pics do the talking=)

Special Yet The Happiest

2011-10-24T23:51:00.000-07:00

Went to Tanglin special school to do volunteer work on Saturday, have to wake up like super early and have to reach the school by 7.45am. Met JM, Min, Raysha, Hidayu & Mindy at redhill mrt station & we walked to the school which is nearby together.

What i want to say is they are really a nice bunch of kids, they are so innocent & they are the happiest, kindest people i ever see ever since I'm born. Although some of them are almost the same age as me, but they keep calling me jie jie which means sister in chinese, they are all willing to help out and they are really a nice bunch to hang-out with. I really felt so happy that morning while working with them, if i have the chance i would really want to go back & volunteer for them. I exchanged my number with the teacher in-charge of me that day, she told me she will call me if the school needs any volunteers =)

Sometimes normal people like us, tend to plot on people & also living in misery everyday. Just because we are normal we tend to get greedy, and is the greed that kills us & took away our happiness. It maybe sad that is harder for them to lead a normal life, & it will take them 2 times the will to be able to make it, but the simple & happiness in them is what we can't have it forever, not because we can't be happy is because we can never stop thinking so much, plotting at people & even to control ourself from creating negative emotions.

Maybe this is one thing which i can't have & i hope they will treasure it, shall let the pictures do the talking then=)

Grandma's Birthday Dinner^^

2011-10-23T15:16:00.000-07:00

Went to golden spoon restaurant yesterday night to celebrate grandma's birthday, even though that night is not her actual birthday we had a blast with the awesome dinner, & not forgetting the amount of fun we had & jokes we talked about. First time we had an almost full family dinner & portrait, expect that daddy is not free & he's not inside. My next aim will be CNY i will make sure we will have a full family portrait haha. =)

What i want to say to grandma is happy birthday ah ma, you always loved the 5 of us & we also loved you a lot too, although is not your actual birthday & they say old people don't really like to celebrate birthdays, but i know you won't mind hope you love the birthday album that the 5 of us gave it to you. We will continue to fill up the album with more pictures as the year goes by love you lots.^^

Took some pictures of yesterday night, i shall let them do the talking=)

Ben & Jerry's Chunk Fest

2011-10-16T03:20:00.000-07:00

Went for Ben & Jerry's chunk fest today, worked at the registration counter with min as usual played around with all my classmates & had lots & lost of fun at the chunk fest=) Had free vouchers for Ben & Jerry's ice-cream & took back some freebies too. Anyway it make me understand deeper about events & how a carnival is really like, which i had never really been to the past 1 year plus of my evm course. Okay shall stop here & let the pictures do the talking enjoy=)

Ups & Downs

2011-10-04T23:11:00.000-07:00

I don't know how or where to start, but here goes...

First let me start with my most current result, i dropped from 3.6 to 3.1 i know is quite a heavy drop of 0.5 & I'm pretty upset about it a fact that i can't deny. I have been trying to refrain myself from crying because i know i deserve it somehow, i shouldn't blame anyone or anything at all what i get is what i deserve. Somehow they say Capricorn doesn't cry easily, maybe that's why i manage to control myself? But yea i don't know also, i would be lying through my teeth if i say i'm not affected at all guess i could only work harder this sem?

Second. Is about the start of school received my timetable mon & tues totally the same from 12 to 4 & wed from 12 to 5, thurs 12 to 4 & fri 8 to 12. I can't say is badly planned but i must say is really quite slack compared to the other sems that we had experience before. I really had a great time with IET for the past 1 year plus, now when most of us are opened up to one another we are all separated into different internships, our time in class is all being cut out & off & this is our last sem somemore, is quite sad but there is one day where all of us have to say good-bye & move on, hope we will all cherish the time we are left with each other & try to attend every lesson possible?

Third. A bit of messed-up relationship/life world, somehow my peace & quiet session doesn't seems to last long yea? I know that he is officially with her i don't deny that i feel a tiny tiny bit of pinch within me when this is being confirmed, but i feel really happy for both of them they look real good together, & i really wish them all the best from the bottom of my heart & last long^^ That egg comes back to fb message me now, when he don't have my new phone number of course like i ignore right? If he came as a friend's intention i wouldn't mind at all, but the problem is he is not that's why now i can only pray hard that he will not come back in terms of cyber, gadgets or even in real person.

Now talking about the good-feelings guy hmm the situation doesn't seems that it's improving, is still very very normal between us so normal that i know it well that he doesn't feel it i bet i'm like super not obvious at all, but i'm struggling one side of me hopes he feel it, another side don't so now how? This question have been with me for quite some-time, so i can only say let heaven show me the answer if it's meant to be it will, it it's not it never will we shall see.

Fourth. Old family problems with mum, our relationship doesn't seems to improve at all, sometimes we can argue almost daily, like having our three meals what i did she doesn't like & i don't like she hovering over me when i'm already 18. They say step aside each so things will be better, but i really hope she will step aside maybe once for me? Like trust me that i know what i'm doing, is so hard to get on with life like that with all these arguing & it drains not only the both of us, but dad & sis too pulling down the whole family.

So basically these are the few things that are bugging me now? Sometimes i can only stare out of the window & wonder what to do, with all these ups & downs of my life hoping to find the answer soon...

Shopping with jemmy^^

2011-09-28T23:11:00.000-07:00

Met jemmy out this two days yesterday & today, it have really been a long time since the both of us, went out alone. Planning to watch movie at first but is quite late already, & none of the movie look appealing so we ended up shopping instead. Went around & as usual we chatted like there's no tomorrow, really love this feeling & friendship that both of us share.

Teaching jem how to use her new I-phone 4 is quite a hilarious process, i'm an android user but i ended up teaching her how to use her I-phone haha, & yea as usual my jemmy is still as blur as ever haha. Also i loved the present that she got for me from Hong Kong, a fish pouch & 2 bracelet that she purchase for me appreciate that a lot jemmy=) Met up with her again today as usual shopping around & chit-chatting along the way, i really had a great time this 2 days thank you jem^^

Holidays meet-ups^^

2011-09-21T22:37:00.000-07:00

Okay I'm back from chalet, gonna update the updates that is supposed to but lacking of the time to do so. Met up with mu lan & ai poh for shopping on the 11th to shop around orchard, & went to send hui qi off to perth in the evening. Met up with the girls again on the 18th again for a gathering, but ai poh din manage to join us=(

Basically I had fun with the girls, but sad thing is i can only meet them during holidays during school days, we are all so busy is so hard to meet up for just once really treasure the times that i manage to meet up with them. Sometimes i feel bad when i can't meet up with them, is like is always a bad timing that cause us not to be able to meet. But nevertheless i know & hope that it will not affect our friendships yea, okay shall update till here let the photo's do the talking.

Sabu Sabu day (^-^)

2011-09-16T23:19:00.000-07:00

Today could be stated as a fun day...

Met min at bishan mrt at 1 & we walked to school together to collect our F1 uniforms & stuff, saw sean, viktoria, farah, alex, jaeden & marilyn working for the collection of F1 uniform. After collecting went to disturb them around, had a great time with them after that went for lunch with min & py. Went to buy KOI for them never buy 5 KOI together in my life before honestly it was quite heavy when I'm carrying it back haha. Stayed with them till 5 playing around & as usual joking around too^^

Went to kallang leisure park to look for mum, small & 3rd aunt, joined them for K for an hour singing all those old songs with them is somehow quite enjoyable. Went for sabu sabu with them for dinner, yet another good meal for the week haha so blame no one but me, if i grew fat after this holiday hehe. But I'm still happy when both my aunt told me that I slimmed down, although I think is because they never see me for too long haha but nevertheless, it still made my day haha. Had a really awesome dinner with my aunts & mum, although it make my aunt had a hole in her pocket but she say is worth it. Thank you small aunt for everything<3

That's all for today fruitful day I must say & yea some other reasons that make me happy too, shall blog up to here gonna post some pictures of the sabu sabu^^

K-box & Bedok 85^^

2011-09-13T23:36:00.000-07:00

Met up with the girls yesterday for K-Box session, & stanley joined us for dinner at bedok 85 in the evening.

Had a blast at K-Box with min & py as usual we are high-ing over all sorts of songs, and of course not forgetting the head-banging session with yamapi's one in a million song. It can be said as our way of distress after the four days of hell for exams?? Met stanley at 7 for dinner at bedok 85, finally got a chance to eat there after so long, although I'm full & bloated ttm but I'm really contented. We had satay, lala, stingray, barchormee, chicken wing, fried oyster omelette, rice, sugarcane juice & 3 packs of durians. After that we went back to bedok point to drink gongcha and had a small chit-chat session.

Anyway we really had a fun day yesterday, I shall let the pictures do the talking=)

Exam Week { "- }

2011-09-07T16:11:00.000-07:00

Currently having exam now just ended MICE yesterday & POM aka marketing ended today. How should I say this, is like i really studied hard for all my papers, but is just that I can't help but to feel nervous every time i see the paper and I can't help but to worry how will my grades be like after I finish every paper. Although they say what pass is all the past concentrate on the other unfinished papers, instead of dwelling on a paper that have past & you can't change anything anymore.

I really don't hope that my g.p.a will go up, *but it will be best if it really went up* but at least just let it stay?? I really really want to try and obtain scholarship for my poly education, i might want to prove something but is also for my family too I don't want to burden dad with my education fees, since he is paying for my sis's uni fees already. But other than continue to work hard for the rest of the 2 papers, and try to get whatever i got i can't do much too right?

Oh well i'll just work hard and pray that god will help and at least just let me stay at my g.p.a? Finally good luck to all my fellow friends, classmates & schoolmates continue to work hard & all the best yea=)

End of ALL projects & start of busy study week for exams

2011-08-28T01:20:00.000-07:00

Had my last presentation on friday, which is PR presentation although is super short, but it went well and that marks the end of my busy projects sem but also the starting of my busy exam study week. There is bound to have small conflicts and arugements during the process of projects , but in the end everything still turns out well which I'm glad and really hope our grade will be excellent too=)

Here comes the busy one week and a bit of study week for our 4 modules, I feel the tense and stress in me and I don't know why I can't seem to remember anything at all from my four modules. Well I can only pray for the best as I continue to study?? I really don't need my G.P.A to go up, I just pray for it to maintain the same?? That's all I really hope for. Some photos to share for the last formal presentation & the marking of the end of all projects enjoy=)

Busy School week.

2011-08-14T00:40:00.000-07:00

This week is really a busy school week, Monday national day celebration, Tuesday holiday/project day, Wednesday MOU signing with Cityneon, Thursday busy rehearsal/project working day, Friday VM presentation POM proposal & VM report deadline. It looks really hectic but manage to pass through it but somehow I ended up in bruises. Been rushing through everything, but yea as usual I shouldn't complain there are more people out there, who are worse than me while gonna share some pictures to lighten up the mood here. Gonna work even harder now till next time then:)

Snapping

2011-08-09T23:06:00.000-07:00

Did I hit maximum? I don't know this question myself also, I never feel so annoyed before in my current life. Is not only the projects and the up-coming exams that is pressing down, all the other things that I have to come across although they say life give you shit, and I know that this is not the worse yet but I'm really really tired.

I don't like to show or let people know because I know I'm not the only one out there who is feeling really fucked up & stress, there are people out there who are even worse than me I prefer to ask people to cheer up & jiayous because I hope things will really turn out fine. Sometimes I even think when I'm asking people to cheer up, when I'm cheering other people I'm thinking am I really feeling this way towards myself too?

I know I'm not happy myself & I keep provoke my family, I just want to do my things alone but I know living under one roof needs to think in the shoes of other people, but I'm really sorry mum & family, I'm really tired I knew I shouldn't treat this place like a venting ground, but this is the only place, where I'm really sheltered. I tend to abuse this place, and treat it like shit I'll really try to change and I'll be better is a promise:)

No matter how awful, fucked up, annoyed I feel I'll keep it to myself because nobody deserve to endure the shit that you are going through, I believe in not affecting other people with your foul mood after this post I'll try and be better and I'll turn my snapping rope into a tight one once again:)

K-Box & Bowling session after school 020811

2011-08-03T01:58:00.000-07:00

Had a great time today after school, went to K-Box with Abi , Alex, Min & Sun. Initially I'm quite shocked when alex really appeared & said that his joining us, I only thought that in his text to min, he is only like say say nia but somehow he really appeared haha. *Which is quite a pleasant surprise*.

First we took the circle line, & went to kallang leisure park we decided to have lunch at Nihon Mura Japanese restaurant. Then we went to K-Box from 2 plus till 6, I think somehow alex looks damn entertained by me, abi , sun & min. But I think he should receive more shock rather than entertainment uh, overall is really a great experience & not to say lots of laughter is being obtained hahaXD After that we go around for a short walk first before we decide to go for bowling, is super out of nowhere haha, we had just a round of game & I'm happy to say that I WIN alex haha, but I know luh is just his warming up, so I got the chance to win him-.- I shouted yamapi at min, when it is her turn to throw the ball haha, seriously I really thought it will help sio, but turns out it does not really helps haha.

After the game is already 7 plus, hmm good times really fly fast uh but is really a great time. We decided to go old airport road to have a budget & good dinner, alex volunteered to walk us there, although he is like going home for dinner?? The walk is quite a lot of funny parts, *too much/long to update here*. Anw by the time we reach old airport road is already 8 plus & worse thing is ALL THE STALLS ARE CLOSED, really omg we din know what happen sio ended up we took a small bus ride, & went back to paya lebar and we decided to have arnold's chicken. It is one of the famous food center there, & we parted ways with alex there but there comes another round of waiting hais, but we managed to get our seats quite fast, & we had a great chicken feast before all of us parted ways & head for home.

Today is really a great day spent, & I shall let the pictures to round up this post, thanks to min for all the uploading:)

Updates

2011-07-30T23:44:00.000-07:00

As usual busy with school projects and trying to study & prepare for the final exams for this sem, it have been a while since I'm back from Sarawak made new friends from IES, IEU & IEV. The experience was great & I guess I'll never forget about it although I have to work really hard, but the fun times will forever be remembered.

After that incident 2 years ago I thought I'm going to be numb forever, but somehow he broke this numbness & I just enjoy talking to him. I'm currently in this hao gan stage & I just enjoy talking to him nothing more. But somehow I just don't feel the numbness when I'm talking to him but I'm not going to think more, I think I'll even avoid more but I know that is not going to be a positive outcome, thus I'm not going to dwell in it for long I hope it will just fade away as time goes by.

Recently I have this hope that I could fly to any island with a small resort, & go cycling, watch the sunset, fishing(I wish to try) even diving(even though I don't know how to swim). Maybe is because of Sarawak trip that makes me even more looking forward to travel & I love water & sea, but is ironic that I don't know how to swim right? Hope next year april comes faster, so I can start working part-time & earn enough to not only bring my grandparents to Beijing, but also enough for me to go travelling to the small island. But the only thing that is making me hope that time will go slower is because of IET, is so fast that 1 year have passed I'll miss everyone as my classmates.

Will just update till here then, I don't know to feel positive about 2nd paragraph or not shall see how things goes than, but is just a thing that is happening that I can't deny it's existence, I'm starting to can't wait to see a sunset already, shall post a picture on that:)

M18:)

2011-07-26T23:37:00.000-07:00

Oh well it have been a month since I last updated my blog, so here's the first post for July, & maybe the last one too haha.

Went out for ganga's & jemmy's 18th birthday celebration, we watched the movie bridesmaid which is M18 as a form of celebration for the 4 of us who turns into 18. The show is a bit rated with sexual scenes from the start, but is really a hilarious show which makes all of us laugh like mad throughout the whole show, had a really great days with the girls will let the pictures do the talking:)

Fun day with mum's family & small aunt's I-phone:)

2011-06-26T23:16:00.000-07:00

Woke up quite early today morning, just to help mum to carry 20 ba zhangs to grandma's cuz they wanted that for lunch. Brought magazine & was given freebies, 2 chocolate bars, 4 korea imported coffee & 2 impact mint.

Had a great day at grandma's & small aunt gave me & sis a USB stick for singtell broadband mobile, for both of us to use, damn nice of her & I used that at grandma's and now I can bring it out to use it for projects. We also played with small aunt's new I-phone 4 took photos & had a blast today we also had dinner at bedok's hong kong resturant is damn deliciou. Shall post up some pics for today, great family day today hope it will stay like this forever:D

K-Box session & Buffet steamboat:)

2011-06-21T13:42:00.000-07:00

Met up with abi, min, mindy & stanley for K-box session & steamboat buffet:D is the first week of the long waited holidays, and finally I can wake up late & have a good rest. Actually having a good rest allows us to walk a further distance in life, so gonna walk even more & longer after this holiday:)

Had a blast yesterday when we go to K-box to sing from 2 to 5.30 at 16 bucks, actually is 10 dollars for the student kala card, and 6 dollars for our singing only. The student card can be used till mext year 30th of march, so when I go K for the weekends from 2-5.30 is only 6 bucks, imagine how shiok that can be uh. After K-box, mindy went off early to go home and rest, while the rest of us went on to have steamboat buffet & photo-taking session, shall let the photos do the talking:D

Happy B-Day Jemmy XD

2011-06-14T23:02:00.000-07:00

Happy 18th B-Day Jemmy:D Finally is your turn to be legal:D

You know, both of us have been very busy, worse off when we went onto year 2 and we hardly can maintain the routine between us to meet like one week once. But just wanna let you know, your still my most most important & best friend, I will always be there for you if you need me. Currently your in Australia barhx? Enjoy life right haha anw enjoy today and I think is your first birthday out of town right? Meet up soon when you come back:D

With Love:

ShiJie:D

宫锁心玉

2011-06-07T23:06:00.000-07:00

I'm blogging about this show today, is a show recommended by my friend at first I'm sort of blur of what's happening inside the drama, like which prince is which prince uh, what's wrong uh and blah blah blah. So at first when I listen to my friend who told me about this drama I'm not really keen, and soon I totally forget about it. But is just so happen that one day, I'm surfing the net and I happen to come across this drama and when I read it, I know that is the drama that my friend recommended it to me. Out of curiosity I pressed the 1st episode and started watching it, and I'm hooked onto it immediately is just so hilarious and I set to watch it daily.

This drama is about a girl who belong to our era, and her family owns a antique shop which is maintained by a guy who loved her a lot, and took care of her and her mum espically since her dad passed away when she's still young. But she does not return the feelings for this guy and on their engagement day, she went after a drawing of a qing dynasty lady who looked like her, and she passed through time and went back into the qing dynasty. Down there she went in the palace and became a palace maid, and she met her Idol the 4th prince who will later become the 5th emperor of the qing dynasty. She also met the 8th prince who is always against her in the palace, but actually he loves her deeply, and also a good friend who is actually the spy for the 4th prince that she is in love with in the first place, but in the end she fell in love and married the 8th prince who have always been there for her. This story is a bit like metor garden but is a different concept and it shows, that through this going back into the past how she learn to cherish a lot of things and not forgetting funny things that happened between her and the royalties.

I shall post some pictures from the drama, all credits goes to google and 宫锁心玉's facebook page. Is really a nice drama full of laughter and love, it is really a stress reviler for me throughout this period of my studies.

ENJOY THE DRAMA & THE PHOTOS XD

Happy B-Day Min XD

2011-06-03T23:30:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th B-Day Min:D

First of all, although is only a year that we have been friends, I really enjoy the times that we spend talking together and I'm even happier when I know you moved to clementi HAHAHAHAHA XD. Okay I know I'm bad haha but I'm really happy haha anyway, hopefully you like the present that i got for you and stay happy always yea:D Another few more months to still be classmates, but dun worry I'll call you up next time and we go makan supper together uh haha:P

Happy B-Day Kat:D

2011-05-28T21:00:00.000-07:00

Happy 18th B-Day KAT:D

We known each other since 15 at sec 3, our friendship is still lasting till now, is damn happy that I know you a friend that is like me, who enjoys being soaked inside a pile of books. *Ps diff type of stories for us uh* Stay happy always and hope you like the early birthday celebration we had for you and the present that we gave:D

Singapore Arts Festival 2011

2011-05-27T23:28:00.000-07:00

Went for Singapore Arts Festival on the 24th & 25th, is quite an enjoyable experience for me as I worked with my good friends & classmates. Been so busy that I can only blog about this now, anyway here goes:)

I really learn't a lot through my experience in the arts festival, when I'm doing the job that I never imagine that I will ever do like seriously. A arts festival in-charge talked to us, which I found out that he is previously a I.T.E student himself. He makes me understand that events is not really what I thought it was, everything have to be done by you and you must be responsible enough, even the shity jobs in peoples eyes, you have to pick it up & really learn how to do everything yourself.

I have a better understanding and new lookout towards events, but I'm still keen into either the funeral or wedding section of events planning. But funeral is the section that I'm more keen as compared to wedding, but the future route is still long and I can't really say anything yet, I guess I'll have to see how the future have in store for me then.

Anyway, had a blast at arts festival I'll upload some pictures to share:)

Yi Shu's 19th Birthday celebration:)

2011-05-17T23:51:00.000-07:00

Today mum's side of our family went to have a birthday celebration for my cousin's 19th. Had Crystal Jade @ Changi Airport, as usual good food & fun, warm family moments shall let the pictures do the talking.

Before I forget, Happy 19th birthday to my cousin Yi shu:D

Umizaru:)

2011-05-10T23:47:00.000-07:00

Today's gonna post about umizaru, a Japanese movie about their Japan coast guard, and espically the main lead Daisuke Senzaki. I have been watching this movie from the 1st season up to now which they are airing the 3rd season already.

I learnt a lot from this movie, about life love friendship & even leadership, I see how Daisuke Senzaki faced all his troubles, form the death of his closest training friend in season 1, to a rocky relationship with the female lead Kanna Senzaki (who became his wife in season 3). The horror when he discover that she is on board the wrecked ship, that he is suppose to help in the rescue mission in season 2, which he came back safely even when he is trapped inside the ship. Also progressing into season 3, when both Senzaki & Kanna is married and even having a new born son, but he faces more trouble when an accident at the giant natural gas plant Regalia occurs. He is set on a rescue mission once again, this time being trapped again with a new diver he have to face the option as he is facing an explosion. All these shows how he made it and not only to come back to Kanna & their son safely, but also 4 lives hanging with him.

I really love this move as it really inspire me a lot, and it really pulls me up a lot when I'm feeling really upset, I'm gonna post up pictures of umizaru 3 enjoy and I hope I get the chance to watch the drama soon.

Happy Mother's Day:)

2011-05-08T20:42:00.000-07:00

Been busy this few weeks, so don't really have much time to update my blog, espically when Yfa flew to Denmark, I have more work to do man.

Okay back to today's topic, time flies & is already may of 2011 and today is mother's day;D I just want to say in my letter to mum:

Dear mummy, although we think differently, and we happen to have conflicts and argue overtime, but actually I understand that you want me to be well, and have the best in life. Is just that I refuse to admit and I feel that what I'm doing is not wrong too, but anyway happy mother's day to you and I'm happy that you like the present that me & Jie get for you. Due to our tight budget, we can only combine presents for both your birthday & mother's day.

Happy Mother's Day to you and love you much much XD

Happy B-Day Hui Qi & Yu Xin:)

2011-04-23T22:28:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday my 2 darling friends:) Is a fate that both of your are born on the same day, month & even year, and also become good friends. Time flies and we are all 18 alrdy, we have known each other for 8 years alrdy, since both of your are born on the same day, and both of your are my close friend, I shall do 1 post for both of your, hope your done mind, have a great birthday and a great year ahead:D

Start of school & Year 2

2011-04-19T23:43:00.000-07:00

Been busy to update my blog, recently school have started and I'm in year 2 now having more modules, and even greater responsibility now. Firstly I'm really grateful that my G.P.A went up and is currently 3.62, I will continue to work hard and even when this sem modules are piling up, I will work doubly hard to make sure I do well. Gonna post some click pictures that was taken, at Abi's house when we do a mini project at her house, is all about my school this few days. *WARNING* Photos looks distorted and funny XD enjoy:)

Happy B-Day Stanley/Gd Bro:D

2011-04-03T18:14:00.000-07:00

Happy 19th birthday my gd friend/ brother:) known you officially for 1 year already, from a normal classmate to a very very good friend. I'm very grateful for having a good friend like you lets really go east coast next holiday. I feel bad cuz this holiday i just recovered from my illness and I am really busy, hope you enjoy your 19th birthday today yea:D Let's stay like this as good friends forever:D

One more week of holiday has passed...

2011-04-02T22:00:00.000-07:00

Another week of my holidays have passed and as usual went out with friends, shopping trip with jemmy, buying of presents with mu lan & ai poh, going IKEA and buying of camp stuff with abi and Lim Min, going out with my mum and visiting of my grandma's house today. Had a lot of good food and also taken pictures with jemmy, will be going away to BLAZE camp on monday dun know is happy or not, shall let the pictures do the talking again:) Update till here then:D

Another week of my holiday

2011-03-27T20:17:00.000-07:00

It have been a busy week of holiday for me this week, going out with my darlings and also meeting up for old times and as such and also going for event such as the earth hour.

Went for shopping trip with jemmy and movie with ganga and kat, went astons with mu lan they all and also shopping with my mum on fri, took part in the earth hour event on saturday really had a great time. Other than that i mostly spend my time staying at home and watching drama huan zhu ge ge, have to start to prepare for camp next week, shall update till here than let the pictures do the talking:)

还珠格格

2011-03-21T23:48:00.000-07:00

Feel like posting about this drama, which have been accompanying me for quite a lot of my time during the holidays, even after 14 years.

This drama was my childhood memory, the 1st drama was filmed in 1997 and the 2nd one in 1999. I was only 4 when the first one was filmed and 6 during the second one, but i remembered it aired when i was in primary school. It was on the 7pm slot and i remembered, i was always rushing home after school to watch it. Xiao Yan Zi (Vicky Zhao) Yong Qi (Alec Su) became my favorite and my first idol, I really liked both of them a lot and when i see how sweet both of them were.

This drama have been with me through my childhood and is still my fav show up till now, both Xiao Yan Zi & Yong Qi makes me dream of a love like them when I'm only like in primary school. It may sounds a bit ridiculous, but i'm really so believed that there is love like them and i remembered, collecting their stickers and always pestering my mum, to buy me their pictures card when i went out with her.

I really thank Qiong Yao the writer of this story, it was really a big big effort for her to create such a wonderful and loving story, espically in the Qing dynasty one of my favourite. She made the story and allow a lot of people to dream of such a forbidden love inside the forbidden city, and she showcase the one and only love between a male and a female, which is very rare and hard to find, typically when man used to have a lot of wives at that period of time.

I feel really happy & grateful for this drama, the sweetness of love and the funny parts of idioms and poems recited by Xiao Yan Zi. I will really buy the books and VCD if i have the chance, and keep this wonderful childhood memory of mine. I'm putting up a few of the pictures, which I found on the net, all credit from google, espically my first idol couple, Vicky Zhao & Alec Su.

Holidays again

2011-03-20T23:32:00.000-07:00

End of Sem 2 and this marks the end of my Year 1 life, this is the second week of my holiday le, don't really know what to update. Went out and meet my friends and also attend concerts and stuff, well i will just let the pictures do the talking and i shall stop here.

My lovely Click & IE1004T

2011-02-19T23:54:00.000-08:00

Just feel like having this post, i have been with my IE1004T classmates for almost 10 months. From the starting where we all dun know each other, all the awkwardness and trying to remember each other names, to now where not only we have our own click of friends but also all of us still like to go crazy together, espically during class outing/field trips. Although i must admit some of your makes me feel pissed sometimes, when i am doing all the admin stuff and i dun like you people having this kind of "you owe me everything" attitude, but you guys are still nice and funny. Really hope that we can stay as a class like this till the end.

Even when a few of our classmates left for ploy or work, just wanna let your know that i will miss you guys. I will rmb how Satish said to me I'm santa clause on his first text to me as a class monitor, also Taufik the days that we took train all the way from Bishan back to jurong and laughing about bangalas in jurong haha. Also Da Jie even when your younger than me by a few months you really have the da jie feel, your the first gd friend of mine as you know luh haha:) Fazil worked with you once although I'm not too happy, and only have a short period of time as classmates with you, but you really have the big bro feel hope your doing well and everythin's fine for you. For Jasmin, your my first friend when i reach I.T.E although you choose to not finish up this course, hope you will excel in the choice you made yea:)

Now to my darling click Abi, JM, Min & Stanley, thanks so much for being with me yea, really enjoy my times with you guys. Karaokae trip with Min, Shopping with Stanley & Abi meeting up randomly with JM for god know reasons, and also the times where the 5 of us have lunch together. When we are mugging and always working well with each other & not forgetting pushing all the report and PPT to JM haha. Really love you guys and hope we can stay like this always? Let's meet up often even after we graduated next year, also THANK YOU for making my life at I.T.E a memorable one and also you all make me realise that I.T.E is not what i think of it as:)

THANK YOU IE1004T & Click for all the wonderful memories you guys gave me:)

Happy B-DAY MU LAN:D

2011-02-16T23:18:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 18TH B-DAY darling mulan:) we have been friends for 8 years, is pretty long uh, dun noe if your still reading my blog. But i will write this post for your 18th birthday, we known each other since pri school and our friendship, is still as strong.

Enjoy your day and always rmb your loved by me:) Happy Birthday:) and may all your wishes come true yea:)

Busy and updates of recent feelings

2011-02-12T13:46:00.000-08:00

Have been neglecting this corner of my life, for a least a month or so. Been really busy there's LPD & TPS project to hand in, with reports and also we need to do presentation, so lately it have been report time and also ppt time. Chinese new year just passed, as usual been bombed with questions like "shijie uh, got bf marhx?" "How's your school luh" blah blah blah. Even worse i'm stocked by my 3rd aunt, she is totally OMG nothing to say, she never become paparazzi really waste her talent man.

I have become more busier when i am elected as the class chair person i really understand how some people can be so dam fucked up. They really need to improve their attitude if not when they go out and work, sure die. I fallen sick recently with flu and sore throat and cough, guess i am too heaty my mucus and spit are all thick yellowish stuff okay I'm being gross here, but is the truth. Having more things coming soon next week and i will have a even more busier days to pass.

Something happened yesterday, which is over my boundary but he doesn't know. I just name him as he uh, he suddenly "attacked"me and tickle me but he is like touching my waist:( I know we play often but this is really over my boundary, i not saying anything but i hope next time he will not do that again. I dun really like you know, other than that i think that will be all my updates shall see if i can update sooner uh anyeon:)

Many Things to share

2011-01-08T22:17:00.000-08:00

This week? It have been a slower week, maybe because my sec sch/ pri sch friends, who are in poly, all went back to sch to study. I have a lesser going out week and i spend like 3 days at home at least? Mon watched tourist with jemmy & having dinner together, tues and wed stayed at home because mum not feeling very well, and well i have no dates. Thurs supposed to go out and do project, but jm & stan couldn't make it, some problems occurred thereafter which makes me doubt whether, trust this word is getting worthless in my life well managed to ask and clarify which makes things better. Went out and meet mu lan & yu xin for a mini and early birthday celebration, thank you guys for the gift you gave me, i will use it well, and both of your are the ones that are always with me since pri 5, i won't forget and i will treasure our friendship. Thanks for the gift once more and thanks mu lan for the card, really appreciated it and thank you for the encouragement, you wrote for me inside the card, it really helps me alot:) Went for a run today, from 200 plus all the way to yuhua, cooling and i really enjoyed it, might be going for a walk tomorrow before school starts need to relax and think for a moment.

My mood is all up and down, it is mixed with happy, sad, angry and even feel touched, no matter what i just feel that there is something missing in me, which i also do not know what is that or how do i get it. I maybe thinking too much or anything, but there is just something missing in me or my life even when i get like almost everything. I know that a person shouldn't be so greedy or what, but i really hope that i can find out what is really missing, and at least try and see of i get it back or anything, but for now i can only wait and try to find out what is really missing. School is starting next week, somehow i don't feel really prepared and i don't know what will be facing when i go back to school again, oh well things come and goes, think i can only just accept what comes and be brave about it.

Pic for this post? Present given by Mu Lan & Yu Xin:) thank you guys:)

Happy B-DAY SISTER:D:D

2011-01-02T23:24:00.000-08:00

Hehe your 21 and happy birthday to you, your an adult now, and i hope you will like the present that i give you:)

Had a celebration with family today at kallang leisure park, with seafood restaurant, the food was great and also, we have alot of fun taking pictures with family portraits:) Okay let the pictures do the talking barhx:D

HAPPY NEW YEAR:D:D:D

2011-01-01T19:49:00.000-08:00

First post of 2011, happy new year to my family & friends not forgetting my beloved, SHINee, DBSK & KIM BUM:)

Well new year have new wishes marhx, so firstly i wish of my most common wish yearly, which is world peace and also a better environment for everyone in this world. Next is a better year for all my friends and family, forget those unhappy things and leave the things, that should be left behind. Next is hope my 3 idols will continue to work hard and i wish to see more of your performance, songs or drama(although i know is hard and almost impossible for DBSK). 2nd last thing, good results for all my friends and family, hope i will continue to maintain my top 10%:) lastly good health for all my family & friends, dun fall sick this year:)

Tat is all i hope for 2011 and i know is a bit too much uh haha, but i will try and pray hard, for all these things to come true. HAPPY 2011 everyone hehe:D

My photo for this post? Darling MinHo and his new year greetings:D

Happy B-DAY TUCKK:D

2010-12-29T21:45:00.000-08:00

Happy 17th B-day to you:) Is like your almost one year younger than me sia, even though your born on the year 1993 haha, after your 17th B-Day like one week & a few days, i will be 18 haha i look so old with you uh haha.

ANW, we have been friends for 5 years, and even when we have a really "cold" war this year, but we went through right? Thus it will make our friendship even stronger i believe:) hope you have a great birthday and also a great year ahead, see you soon yea:D

Busy Busy Holiday & Fun Christmas:D:D

2010-12-26T18:22:00.000-08:00

Have neglected my blog for quite a long time yea haha, because have been enjoying SHINee's videos, really love their dance and pop music. Din really update because i am only posting for a place to let my life to been known, so is okay:) warning is gonna be a long post haha.

Had a great holiday with meeting up with my pals and family time, this week is a Christmas week and also first week of holidays. It have been great and my whole week is being packed up with outings and family times, just to update mon went overnight K with aunt & cousin and stayed over at grandma's house. Tues stayed at home to pack some stuff and slack a bit while helping my mum out, wed went to harmonic concert with jemmy it was awesome haha, thurs went christmas shopping with hui qi, she wanna buy some presents and fri went out to movies and shopping with yu xin & mu lan. Sat is christmas and went over to grandma's house for party and family gathering aunt brought us christmas presents and i loved them, thank you all my 3 aunts:D

I learnt and grew up alot this year and i made lots of good friends when i went to I.T.E, at least now i learn to cope with stress and also to look at things on the bright side, it really makes me a lot more happier, and i believe i will continue to grow more in the coming 2011, time flies and 2010 is coming to an end but i really had a great year other than some small hiccups, it is really okay for me:) I have lots more activities coming up the week after and most importantly, my SIS's birthdae is coming hehe looking forward to it man:)

Okay shall post till here, let the pictures do the talking barhx haha:)

HAPPY B-DAY SISMING/DADDY

2010-12-10T23:20:00.000-08:00

Hehe happy 19th birthday to you, stay funny and humourious always yea:) it had been a nice/hard time though our friendship for the past 8 mths, but hope it will last yea. Don't PMS too much uh if not i will feel like bashing you up sometimes other that you are really a great friend. Change your temper and work hard for good G.P.A uh jyjy and happy B-Day:)

HAPPY B-DAY CHOI MINHO:D

2010-12-09T01:00:00.000-08:00

Hehe you are 2 years older than me:) Just wanna tell you this, your great in your rapping and dance, and you rock in pianist too:) hope to see more of SHINee's songs and you too:) Wish that you will continue to work harder yea:) really admire you and last but not least, Happy B-day:D

解不开的谜底

2010-11-30T23:52:00.000-08:00

在十一月过以前，我想把解不开的两个问题说出口。第一，我一直在问自己是否是一个称职的朋友？我做的好不好呢？每一个我认识的人我都以真心来和他/她做朋友。可是不管我怎么做，我老是觉得自己做的不过多。我也不知道如何解释为何我有这样的想法，希望有朋友能告诉我那里做的不够好我希望能改过来。

第二，已经一年了我不知道我到底在等什么？他过的很好啊都是我自己还没放弃吧？或许是时候醒一醒了吧，好想知道下一步该往那里走才能找到答案。

Busy Week:/

2010-11-18T22:56:00.000-08:00

I llove their music and i love my life currently:)

I think it is very long since i updated my blog, this is a very busy week for me lack of sleep luh, T-Net sports event, speed stack event SVE's PT tml and project blah blah blah... So Just like the normal days lor, been busy and think i had a terrible headache just now:/ and mummy help me squeeze out the huge pimple on my ear OMG pain sia:( but is good for me so no choice then.

Recently keep meeting weird people uh, but guess sometimes need a bit of white lie to lie through things uh, but nevermind, we have to go though all these in order to grow older yea:) just feel like updating some of my fav band and my life, will write till here then, have to revise on SVE, already starts to feel the stress sia:/

2010-11-03T23:10:00.000-07:00

Happy B-Day OrangUtan:D

Hey hey hey happy birthday orangutan, although we are schoolmates for 4 years, but we only became close when we are sec 4 is a bit late uh, but better than nth right:) anyway happy 17th birthday yea:) learn to relax a bit and dun be so tense and stress in your poly work, learn to rest abit and sometimes meet us up to chill for a while. Been very happy for the past 1 year of knowing you, lets keep our friendship till the end yea:)

2010-10-19T23:00:00.000-07:00

Happy B-day ABI:D:D:D

Happy 18th B-Day to Abi even when we just get to know each other for around half a year, you have been a very very good friend to me and our friendship is still counting:) Wanna wish you a happy 18th legal birthday haha even is not the full legal age, is one of the age that we should enjoy ttm:) Had a great celebration with you today as we sing like mad women at K-Box shall go there again when we are richer haha:)

2010-10-16T23:40:00.000-07:00

First week of school, expected to be busy but it turns out to be okay only busy for 3 days which is before the PAYM competition. The modules for this sem is quite manageable the only module that i am not really good at is writing for business, using too much sms language le so finds it hard to adapt to formal english even when i am taking my Os.

We did well for the PAYM and my group came in first among all the evm first year:) Other than these, actually nothing much happen this week and mostly is study and also work, i will work hard to maintain my 3.588 G.P.A and i will strive to get into SP. Before i go, i am sharing some pictures:)

Before holiday ends and school starts

2010-10-09T22:57:00.000-07:00

Okay, sweet sweet holidays are coming to an end, and a new sem is coming with new modules and new things to study, also more and new events coming in. Gotten my results back and my G.P.A is 3.588, yea........................ Happy ttm, if i continue to work hard, SP wait for me i will confirm be able to enter de:) although i am taking a longer route, i believe that if i continue to strive on, i will be able to achieve what i want and i will still reach the end:)

Tomorrow have I DO wedding event, feels quite excited because i get to see a lot of couples getting wed on the same day, which is quite a helpful event if next time i want to get involved in wedding events and become a wedding planner. I now feels more happy after i learn't to not think so much uh, but i admit i am still weak in some places, one is you. I hope that i am just thinking too much again but somehow i can still feel something from you, but never mind, things will be what is should be when the right time is here and i will know the answer between us.

Next Wednesday will have be PAYM final presentation somehow i feel that i really never help much in this project sia, most of the work is done by alex and he never sleep for so many days. Hope that we will be able to win at least one of the 4 prizes, so that our loss of sleep won't be fruitless. But i can't believe i will have to wear a cheongsum on my presentation hais must start to slim and cut on the fatty food intake from tomorrow onwards.

Anyway, have a busy holiday and it is just going to end like that, but i had a nice and not bad one, hope the next one will have you inside and i know i am going to be busy but i will enjoy the busyness haha:)

Holidays

2010-10-02T23:30:00.000-07:00

Okay now i am having holidays, now having the bind of O-level, from the next holiday onwards, i want to do volunteer work for children for every holiday. I will spend lesser time on fun and enjoyment for myself and i want to work and help the children, hope i am able to find and i will go at least twice every week. Children are the most innocent and adorable people on earth, some of them just doesn't have what we had, family, health, love so i should spend more time with them and care for them:)

Now is holidays and just passby a few events and i made new friends from F1 and i feel very happy, even when some people maybe irritating and we may not like them, but different people have different character, so i learn't to accept them and as long as they never really do anything to me, or harm me, i would not bother much with them as we said the more we get angry with people, the shorter our lifespan is so why bother with them:) Also went out with mu lan yu xin and jemina kathleen they all also, went back to school for meeting and events, so i will just post some pictures and let them do the talking:)

I have learn't to be more happy and put down more things, just be myself and who bother about whether you have someone special with you or not, they will come when the time is right and for those who have one, is a bonus and they should cherish them. As long as friends and families are with us all along we are much better than those people on earth right? Cherish what we have and all the other bonus will come as the right time that they should:)

Happy B-day

2010-09-29T23:55:00.000-07:00

Just a post before today ends. Happy 17th B-day Lincoln:) Eh just want to wish you a happy birthday and good luck in your future A-levels:)

2010-09-23T19:57:00.000-07:00

Okay shall be a short and sweet post, recently i dun noe what is wrong with me, i dun noe what am i doing and i am like blur blur de-.- Almost got knocked down by car three times already in this week. Maybe i should be more alert and stop being so blur and day-dreaming when i am walking, if i will really end up in the hospital one fine day. Tml is the start of F1 work, dun feel like working, but i wan the 300 bucks hais, but there is no free lunch in this wrold uh, will pack up my feelings and rest early tonight so i will be fresh for work. Okay these few days went out to town with jemmy, kat on wed and mu lan and yuxin on tues, so i have been wearing black for almost everyday haha, so addicted to black colour these few days. Okay let the pics do the talking, will be updating mostly after F1:)

2010-09-19T00:40:00.000-07:00

Okay, update more recently, cuz have more time now compared to last time. Recently is still the same, i am trying to be as normal as possible and not to worry, i will make it de:) have to start 3 days work from next friday onwards, but dun feel like going which i also don't know why, maybe is bcuz of him barhx. But anyway, for the sake for 300 bucks i will endure through the 3 days and hope i won't do anything wrong haha:P

Everything is still the same, but what is different is i learn't how to put down a lot of things although some pictures and videos are still lingering, i can say out load that i am recovering in quite a good shape:) but regarding another person i don't like to say much and so just let things be barhx and i will take all the ending and accept everything. Now is studies that is bugging me, maybe i finished my module exams and i feel lazy to start studying for my Os so i am not working very hard, and i should accept any outcome that i received this time round cuz i did not really study and i could not blame anyone compared to last time, which i really did studied very hard for at least the last few months.

Anyway, brought a mini cookie monster as a bit of reward for mugging hard for the past 6 mths of I.T.E i will continue to work hard for my I.T.E and hope everything turns out well and i can enroll into SP:)

2010-09-16T00:34:00.000-07:00

Finally finished all the final module exams, feel so happy hehe:) BZE is still manageable, but EPL is quite tricky so hais dun noe will pass or not leh:/ nvm uh, i tried my best already, so whether is pass or fail, lets just leave it to heaven barhx:)

Recently, i started to put down my feelings a lot a lot, and i feel so much happier:) You feels so much happier, as you let down something that you know will never ever be yours, you happy, he happy and you will feel much better. But i know myself i am able to put down, is bcuz of i know who, but i know nothing is going to happen so i just let things be natural barhx, taking train with him seriously brighten up my day. I seems to feel for childish ppl uh, maybe you can say that i belong to the childish section myself barhx haha:P

The poker card result keeps bugging me you are the least amount of cards that i have uh, but there is one obstacle between us, which i also know why luh, maybe it might be accurate but i am tired already, maybe by just leaving things to be will be better, sometimes i can't tolerate that temper of yours uh, you get angry too easily but maybe that is your personality barhx, so i should just learn to accept:) Anyway, i just want things to be as like now and i dun feel like moving anymore things, i am afraid that history will repeat itself and i will lose another good friend, so conslusion let just see how things will go for the next one year plus barhx:)

B4 i go, liike to post a pic recently have this addiction omg haha love it to the max:D

Start of school and moduel exams

2010-09-06T23:49:00.000-07:00

Okay end of sweet holidays and start of revision week and moduel exams. Just got the bad news tat i flunked my excel hais tat is the price i have to pay for not playing real attention in class. I am over confident of myself bcuz of the previous test, and i am too nervous during the exam time:/

Oh well have to go for extra lessons tml and a retest on thurs. Believe in yourself LIM SHI JIE and you will be able to do it de jiayous and must make sure you learnt all the mistakes that you have made in the exam, okay that will be all regarding school stuff and everything else.

I feel that i am facing some problems which i oso dun noe what and why:( guess i have to try and understand what i wanted and to find out what is the real problem so i could feel better okay shall update till now and off to study and sleep:)

2010-09-02T23:41:00.000-07:00

Updating my blog after like one week plus? Okay recently module exams are coming and must mug hard, somemore still have lots of other events such as F1, I do wedding day, and many more, so i will try and update as much as i can.

Okay today i learn how to see other's love life through poker cards, how cool is that OMG haha and i notice that the person you are thinking of, could only be seen on the first test and the upcoming ones won't be as accurate and you must be thinking of him/her throughout the whole process. I am still quite new but i am getting a hands on it and it is fun haha:) I did 3 test on different ppl and the results are suprising, but 90% is true man i have a shocked of my life. Oh well i must continue to see if all that results are true or not:)

Okay so holidays ended and school offically started and i feel that i not only have a busy holiday but also a busy school schedule. I guess that all events students are all like that barhx, you need more exposure and to have more experience b4 ppl are willing to hire you. In the events industry, is hard for newbeeis to start off but once everything gets on well, ppl will recognize your talent and planning skills, and things will get better.

I wanted to open my own cafe so i plan to take up courses next year learning how to be a barista:) i hope i will have a chance to work in startbucks and have a chance to understand how they work and learn well from them. I will work hard de jiayous:)

I really need a space for myself:/

2010-08-22T13:29:00.000-07:00

Okay many things really happened these few days and i really dun noe what to do sia i feel so lost and irrtated. What should i do? Min tells me to ignore but i can't just simply ignore right? I know am in no position to interfer, but since he come to me himself, how can i pretend not to see anything and just dun reply and ignore...

I want everything to turn out good. is that really so hard? Why can't everybody just move on and get a life hais f sia:/ Even when i am having holidays, is not any better right? Nothing just seems right from the start argh wth how i wish somethings just never happened from the start:/

2010-08-07T11:03:00.000-07:00

Okay since july i only have one post, i shall update more on august. Every week has been quite busy praying that holidays will come asap man, one more week of sch haha, went to clake quay- china town area yesterday with min and abi, abi intro de thailand food was awsome:) after a awesome lunch, walked to china town, hoping to visit the museum but end up, student price was 10 bucks hais can go bang wall man:P

Oh well, i am feeling less and less close with you now, maybe you are avoiding or is it just me, but idoits also can tell that there is some problem between us, i just wanna know what is the problem or is it just me who have the problem. I hate to be in this state, i want to know what is the problem and i want to solve the problem not by getting further and further away, if you really want things to be in this way, then i would just let it be but at least let me know what is the problem. Even when you dislike me in someway or another, i would still want to know why and how come so i could accept it and leave it.

Oh well tat is just for mow, going out soon will try to update as much as possible, maybe thinking of changing blog soon...

All i ever wanted to say to you...

2010-08-01T13:34:00.000-07:00

Since you dun noe abt this, i will say all waht i wanna say here. Oh well, received your text last night, and yea uds what have happened and i knew it even more that is not possible...

I feels that i am getting harder and harder to know who and how is the real you. I am just got a feeling that we are getting distant yea. even when you are still willing to tell me lots of your stuff but i am just feeling that maybe we are just like tat? Somethhings i wanna keep to myself cuz i am afraid that you will be worried and i dun wanna scare you... But you can never sense why i am doing this, i know i shouldn't say out even the sentence but, it just slipped and i am trying to cover it up right? Just play along marhx, and you will forget abt it soon...

I can't deny that i have that feeling but i am controlling it and i am trying to curb it right? You may not sense it at all or you did but kept quiet for the sake of both of us and i am in the wrong to be thinking abt 2 ppl now, but you seems that you are taking over you noe? I am afraid to step inside once again , it always end up fruitless and also nothing good came out... But i can't stop it from happening, maybe i should try and numb myself but i tried to and to even distant away from you but you will always end up, giving me concern and making me laugh, even wanting to share my troubles, but how can i tell you when you are part of it? Maybe i should just let things be but my emotions dun allow that and nvm, i should have learn't from all the past incidents and grow up already...

2010-07-08T21:45:00.000-07:00

It's hard to find someone who have the same feelings for you, but recently, i manage to find that some of my friends found them or can say still in progress in poly and i feel quite happy for them though.
Ppl once says that is hard to find that special someone in your life but believe in yourself, and you will find it, this is for a friend.

Friends ask me, how is my life, but what can i say? Haha have good points and also bad points... But then, life still have to go on right? No point sitting down there and thinking on how can i change the time and what have happened right? Is better to move on and also, think on how can i solve this current problem or situtation... Learn't all tat from the day i obtained my O-level results, is a hard process, but i manage to overcome it, and learn't a lesson on this.

B4 i go, wanna wish ganga a happy 17th B-day and will try to update soon:)

2010-06-19T23:20:00.000-07:00

I am not feeling right... I knew it myself, I think is really the time i let go and move on, it's no point i continue being like tat... It won't do me any good and i am tired... Jem is right, better leave things as it is... Do everyone good and everyone will have a happy ending..

Had sakae with jemmy today, enjoyed the food like totally is super nice haha but my pocket have a big big hole haha... Anyway i got nth to write and i feel tat i should be more personal towards my stuff, so should be posting lesser and lesser on my blog...

2010-06-11T10:15:00.000-07:00

I holiday mood le haha today last day of school, trying to endure finish lifeskills the three hours without killling myself haha...

Don't know why, getting more and more pissed off when i think abt going to school, even i have my own click of friends, i still feel that it is very weird to go school and i hate it... But i still have two years more to endure finish the course b4 i get my cert and move on to poly hais... I can only blame myself for doing badly in my O-levels so i have to suffer now... But i still have min abi jm stanley they all so i will undure finish my course and be more cheerful when i go school hais...

I feel that i am changing compared to the past me... I changed since my O-level results were out... I really dun mean to change but i have to endure hais... I just feel that it is not me man i think too highly of myself i keep telling myself, no matter how lousy you are, you will still have a poly to get in de dun worry lah... But it turned out to be different feeling so regertfully now, i should have worked doublely hard and make sure i pass my math hais... No point in saying all these now right? Guess i have to move on with my life and endure finish the 2 years hais...

I start to feel diff for some things hope that time will move on fast and by the time i reach half a year to one year i will not feel the diff le... For now guess i just have to try avoid it and not to get so close barhx... I am always ending up hurting myself so i have learnt my lesson this time to stay away as far as possible...

2010-06-04T07:59:00.000-07:00

Finally, i am motivated to post something haha, recently busy with exams but thankfully, i passed my BZE and CMB, i did not bad..... OFA hehe i dun noe yet haha cuz today just finished but managed to do leh so i think should be okay de.....

Now feeling a bit relaxed, just wanna slow down my steps and wait to enjoy the upcoming holidays hehe:) so now only wanna work hard on my Os and relax a bit....... So now posting until here le wanna nappy le...... Hehe.......

A day filled with happiness......

2010-05-21T23:00:00.000-07:00

Today was good day as i can feel, firstly there is no school, i have dinner with jemina, i met him at lakeside mrt and had JM entertaining me when i went to city hall to grow mushroom haha...... Also, SUPER GLUE never went ot tution OMG so happy haha.....

Woke up at ard 10 plus and had breakfast then prepare and bath the went to cafe to have my lunch and study. Reached there ard 12 plus had fish o spagettie and ice cuppicno haha i dun noe how to spell so 4get abt it.. Studied for 2 full hours on BZE and eng compo. Then JM called and then knowing i going to city hall he wanted to tag along haha.

Went to popular to help my mum buy stuff then trained to city hall reached there earlier then JM then went to HMV his way of appearing makes me laugh again haha.... I wanna say, thx sister for being such an entertaining friend when i went there to grow mushroom haha even when is like super hot and when you step into esplanade your face is even more dumb haha but you seriously made my day.

Walked around with him and to bugis then we trained ard 6. We are earlier then jammy and hiang teck so we trained to joon koon and then come back, i am like playing with his phone cam and it was so fun haha.... Then said buaiz to JM and alighted at lake side while he train back to jurong east..... When i reached jemmy and hiang teck was already at down stairs and i called them while jemmy sounded super duper excited cuz he was at lakeside my god i was like so shocked and me him and jemmy walked together. I have the chong dong to tell him some stuff but ended up i stopped myself i just can't pluck up the courage. Was late for tution cuz me and jemmy had dinner late then tution went on the fun way cuz SUPER GLUE is not there haha okay i am mean but is hard to explain......

Anw, had a best day of my life since the start of school and i enjoyed myself....:)

2010-05-16T00:34:00.000-07:00

Why is it so hard to be a loner? Sometimes i just needed to be alone, is tat so hard? Oh well who says time passes by very fast? Everyday is a like a torture to me man......

I am not joking when i say i am struggling, i am still looking for the piece of wood in the vast ocean, for me to hold onto and make sure that i will be save..... but i still can't find it anywhere nearby, people say i am easy to get along with... But am i? I feel tat this is not the way man, i wanna to blend it, but i ended up being bounced out once and again...... Now every weekday is just like a plain torture to me...... Is hard to face it man but i have no choice at all...... Who ask me to end up like tat kast year? I have no one to blame but myself seriously......

Now i cannot do anything but to pray hard tat two years will passby in a blink of an eye and everything will end soon also i have a chance to leave..........

2010-05-09T00:12:00.000-07:00

It is another typical sunday, the first post in may....... Oh well sch started for almost like a month, and everything turns out still okay barhx but it just feel quite different as my sec sch days, even i have made a few good friends, i sould still miss my sec sch buds....... I noe is no point thinking tat would it be better if i am inside a poly, but sometimes these thoughts just come into my mind without i noticing myself.......

Now my life is filled with tution on mondays, fridays and sundays oso i have school at the same time, recently just found out on how i am still thinking of you, even when i thought tat it would be lesser after sch reopened and i have things to work on, but is all fakish, my mind is till working i will only be able to forget on the moment that i die and it stooped functioning........

I have became more and more pig man, i slept till 12 plus today and i am still able to sleep haiz..... But maybe sleeping is the only way out for me to forget abt things barhx...... Ms ema is leaving and i do feel a bit upset, as she is the type of teacher i wouldn't thought of finding at I.T.E cuz i thought that they wouldn't care much less abt the students, she is a very thoughtful and nice teacher i must say and i do hope that she will still come back to see us when she is free haha..... Cuz we dun have the money to fly to australia haha........

That will be all for today haha, b4 i forget, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MY 2 GRANDMA AND MUMMY, ALSO TO ALL THE MUMS ON EARTH......

2010-04-30T08:01:00.000-07:00

Posting again, can't believe tat only opened school for 3 weeks and things started to go wrong already haiz... There is more drama in sec sch here man i dun really know how to handle such a situtation, there is wrong in everyone this time.

Oh well, i have nth to say anyway, i just wanna be neutral to everyone and i feel tat no one should be left out de... Is my thinking too childish or is the peaceful i wanted too much too ask? I seriously dun know, i feel tat we work out quite well as a group but maybe is just misunderstanding tat is causing the problems, i feel too tired to settle things anymonre, i have enough of this stuff back in sec sch and i dun really wanna see it again in an institiuet, but guess tat this kind of stuff may happen anywhere i go is like i can't stop it from happening......

Not in the mood to say anyomore, hope tat everything will turn out fine between things and everything will turn out well, and let me finish my studies in peace barhx..... Meeting jemmy and tian tml feeling excited cuz can get to see them again whee............

2010-04-23T07:30:00.000-07:00

Posting again-.- feeling very low this few days, wich i oso dun noe why-.- but anyway, now school start le, i am oso much more busy, means lesser time to think abt some things. But when i am travelling in the mrt alone, my brain will just run wild and many images will just flash in my mind and i dunnoe how to stop thinking abt it man.

I dun noe how to start talking.... I must admit that i am quite an emo girl, and i tend to keep things within myself, but this time, i just dunnoe how to start to talk abt it.. Even when i know that there is a whole bunch of gang waiting and willing to hear what i wanna say, but is just hard to spell it out anyway, i just have to try and settle it myself.

Have sch activity tml, a eco concert-.- dun feel like going, but i have no choice man, attendence is complusary, have to go but lucky i do not have to wear uniform if not i will sur go insane. Anyway, tat is all for now, will try to updat as much as possible.

B4 i forget, "HAPPY 17TH B-DAY XIN & QI DAR...."

2010-04-19T07:56:00.001-07:00

Whee............ Tml have to wake up at 6 and i am still blogging haha, just a update on how my school have been, it have pass a week, and i felt much better in regarding to connecting with my class, they are hipyer ppl man, is not hard to get along with them though.

Dun noe is it due to me not studying for 51/2 mths or words look like aliens to me haha, all those business stuff is driving me crazt man haha but will work hard to get good grades for my course and oso will be working hard for my retaking of the big Os haha.

Oh well, tat is for until today, will try to update soon man till then barhx nights;)

2010-04-10T00:30:00.000-07:00

Hey hey hey, first post of april 2010 haha, next week will be the first day of school, not so sure abt how am i going to survive the first day of school, but i will try my best, and i will be nice to everyone..... Hiaz school habben even come and i already start to have the jitty feeling... -.-

Without my gang and my peeps, i have to go to the new wnvironment all alone.... No choice, i can only blame myself for doing so badly in my Os, oh well i have another chance so i am going to strike hard and make sure i will do very very well......

All the memories i have with my buddies will forever be with me, as i face the new environment and place i have to go jiayous shijie:P

2010-03-30T07:49:00.000-07:00

All i ever wanted, was just a simple life, average reults, good family and friends relations. But non of these were happenning, is just that all of my life is turning up side down, but there is nothing much which i could do about it......

I know that the way which i keep habouring on my results, will not do anything to help, but is just that as everyday passby, seeing all my friends preparing for poly, my life is just not turning better, having to face the fact that everyone gets to a poly and the feeling is just hard to explain, but i cannot blame anyone expect myself, sometimes i just want to seal myself in my own house, but now this house is making me feel like turning away from them.

Even my mum claim that she understands and will not blame me, i just don't feel they way that she does i can still sense that deep inside, she is still blaming me still feels upset... The things that she said keep whiring in my mind " Mummy thought that no matter how lousy is your results, you can still get into republic poly, but in the end..... Hiaz nevermind just go on with your school" I am feeling equally upset abt my results, and i just can't feel the fact that she understands my feelings or maybe is just that i am too senstive. No one is feeling any worse than me in the world okay?

I am just getting more and more pissed off and i hate myself to the core, even when ppl will think that i am too over and should get over my results now, but is not them, so no one will ever understands....

Trying to numb myself...

2010-03-20T07:57:00.001-07:00

Hiaz..... What a way to start my post haha, oh well as peeps can see from my title, i am getting more and more upset each day, which i oso dun noe why.. Half of myself wanna start school early, another half reculant to go haha i must see mental doc le.

I guess is that i still cannot get over some stuff, and i have to face the fact tat right from the start, nth was real, i have been deciving myself all along, is just tat i dun noe how to face it myself, guess tat i have get used to it myself.. Oh well, sometimes it doesn't help, i just have to continue my smile and i guess none of them are reading so is okay....

My mood is not any better, i know tat feeling like tat now is not helping and is a very childish way for me, but i just hope to have a place for my own and just say whatever i wanna say, sometimes i find it hard to face the guys... I feel much better when i am alone cuz haiz.... Nvm, i will try to adapt it myself..........

2010-03-17T06:50:00.000-07:00

Long time no update haha. Today updating for yesterday, firstly, wanna wish samuel a happy 17th B-day. Although we have a lousy BBQ and almost can say is a failure, we enjoyed ourself to the max and we are a bit crazy haha.

Firstly, went out to buy two shaker to spray on peeps haha, oso a special party hat for samuel so he will look more special haha. Then after i buy those stuff, went to jemmy's grandma's house to collect the beehoon her mum cook for us. Super duper delicious man, then went to take 187 to meet hiang teck to buy the ice for the drinks, have to wait for him while sitting at the busstop. Then he msg and went into 7-11, i have a shock to see him in short pants haha tat part was super duper funny then he give me the look-.-.

Went to his house, and wanted to start decorating, but it started raining-.- hiang teck go back home to bring down the stuff tat we need to use.Finally the rain stopped, and we can start doing the stuff, later jemmy and malcolm came and join us, then we started to decorate while malcolm went to fetch the others. Then everything was done up and we started to party haha, everyone was sitting down and chatting while hiang teck and jemmy get into their "usual fights" we all just stay back and enjoy the good show haha. Then me and hiang teck went to take a bottle of spray each and we started to aim at samuel haha, he was like so shocked haha fun fun fun.... Then everyone kanna expect clever me haha, then i wanted to play the see-saw but was end up being builled by hiang teck, poor me i am in pain.....

Then the food came and hiang teck started the fire,but it was more of a failure than a success cuz due to we as the inexperience peeps, My cooking was fabilious man haha they say the food is nice of cuz lah, done by me leh... We started playing later and jemmy is being dumped into the pool, by who everyone can guess haha then hiang teck was dragged in by jemmy too haha too bad then, all of us was dry and we did not even change at the end hehe...

Anyway, had a great day and in the end was sent home by hiang teck, yi tian and sam, which they later send yi tian home too... Went home to bath and sleep, have a very fun day....

2010-03-04T14:07:00.000-08:00

Recently too engrossed into my drama...... So now updating in my blog as the first post in march. Well life have to go on since i have to start school soon in a month's time? But haiz many things still keep haunting me, i just felt tat even when i tried to stop myself from thinking abt it, it just went through my mind.

Firstly, family problem not having a very good terms with my parents compared to last time, maybe is because of my lousy grades tat is souring my relationship with them, or they might think tat i am a disgrace to them barhx..... I dun noe and i dun wanna know too oso talking to someone is oso not heliping too...... Maybe i should just ignore it......

Secondly, is him, just when i thought he have the same thinking, is just not the way things turned out as i expected, but what can i say? It might be the fact tat is just a one sided thinking of mine right from the start, i should just forget abt it and go on he have his own life and i have mine, if we are fated we will meet again in the future.

Thirdly, is my school, well is pathetic enough tat an express student have to end up in I.T.E but i just dun noe how to face the school and the new ppl, i felt tat my classmates are nice but well, how my school goes on will have to be dependent on myself barhx..... Will have lesser time to update once my school starts...

That will be all barhx have to go prepare for work and tml still have to report to school.

2010-02-25T06:59:00.000-08:00

Posting again... I am excited, cuz I GOT MY PAY AGAIN hehe haha okay i am lame -.- Now working and outings and reading...... I know my mood is not very good these few days, and it have never been better oso..... So if i did anything wrong, pls dun blame me okay?

I have said bye to some things and it will be sealed forever, cuz i believe tat hanging onto it will not do me any good, so just burry them inside my heart, and if they are meant to be, it will be:D For now, i just have to continue my own life without.......

Tat is all for now, tata......

2010-02-22T04:14:00.000-08:00

Posting here, cuz long time nv update le. Okay lah oso not very long haha only a few days....... Now my life just revolve ard work and outings.... I feel so..... Nvm, no one will understands how i am feeling anyway... I oso nv wanna talk abt it.

Well i am feeling tired but i can;t cry, maybe there is some mental problem with me or what i dun care anymore. But working tat time i receive 2 angbaos from customers well which makes my day and i feel much more better although is not a lot of money, just 2 bucks and 5 bucks it just make me feel happier cuz tat is one of a encouragement tat customers gave me which makes me feel tat my service was great. Haha i can be promoter seriously so i won;t go out of job then haha.

Okay tat is all i wanna say, got nth else le, hope my mood will get better soon or i will become an insane girl walking ard haha........

Had a " cooling" day

2010-02-18T23:30:00.000-08:00

Let's start today with the moment i wake up.... Okay went to clementi to meet mable to get the keys to open the door of guardian. Then stand at the mrt and chat with her for a while then walked to the shop and open up for business. Started working and serving the customer haha then waited for time to pass..... Also for mable's staff to come at 12 plus when i am talking to a customer a guy not bad looking walked in, tell me is the staff he smiled at me i melt to the ground man... He not bad looking can? Somemore is doctor in his own country, come here to study engineer OMG i bei dian dao liao haha.

Then done handover with him, then took my bag and left, b4 i leave, he smiled at me again and say "Thank you for your help, hope to see you again, is nice knowing you..." I was like OMG..... I said back " Your welcome, is nice knowing you and hope to see you again" Oh.... Any girl marry him next time sure super good one. Although he is short, he is taller then me lah.... haha his basic pay not bad lor oso super nice..... haha enough of day dreaming, i will only see him once haha.

Okay bused home, and rushed through to prepare and meet jemmy to go laoshi house. I wore the off shoulders for the 1st time, i felt so bare cuz nvm... But jemmy said is not very bao lu nvm i shall wear it lesser and just stick to tees and sneakers haha..... Then saw Mr tan and chatted with him OMG, i missed the times we had tution man...... He gave us a red packet with 10 bucks OMG, he is too generous haha.... Then went with jemmy to have lunch of western downstairs then went to Jp and jemmy keep hearing me winning abt someting haha...... Then shopped around then meet vanessa at 198 there to go to yu xiang's party.

We met then saw yu xiang then zhao fang followed by tuckk. Then walked to safara and chatted along the way, then had dinner at jack's place then followed by some photo taking around safara then zhao fang bu xiao xin stepped into the water which shocked everyone but things are over and okay liao. Then ended the whole trip and me miner tuckk and vanessa walked a good long deal to take the bus number 99. We also chatted along the way and then took the bus and went home reached home at around 10 plus 11 like tat. That is my day for the 18 of feb.

B4 i forget, " HAPPY 17TH B-DAY TO YU XIANG & YU TING"

A happy day:D

2010-02-16T18:17:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 17TH B-DAY MU LAN also, happy new year peeps...... Okay went to celebrate Mu lan's Birthday, and we watched the movie valentines day, it was a blast, it showed the different type of love between couples, and oso how people should forgive one another out of their love for them.

The show was quite funny, oso with some touching parts, i am surprised tat i nv cry haha oh well, i enjoyed the show anyway haha..... Now studying at night, going to bai nian and outings in the day is quite busy haha. I hope tat sch will start soon so i will have something to work on and be busy with haiz........

Another day gone........

2010-02-11T22:36:00.000-08:00

A new post here, b4 i lazy post hehe. Today woke up at 7.30 even when the shop have to open at 8. Cuz i am too tired liao CMI man, have to sleep....... Waited for edwin as usual to open the door, for business then, he came and work started. Me love tuck man, he gave me a surprise by dropping by and see me.... WHEE..... XP. Super happy tat he can walk again and dun hab to use crutches anymore, even when is a bit limping........ He & jemmy seriously make my day:D

Okay, today's work suppose to end at 4 then, will have a small gathering, but it dragged to 7 and we are left to having dinner then went home:( so sadd. Hui qi de baking skills improved, and her cookies are delicious hehe..... But something happen to her and better not talk abt it here.......hehe. My day was tired, and i am furious, but in the end, everthing turned out well, and all thx to jemmy's support and tuckk who made my day...... Also, he aim to become a traffic police shocking hor? Dun noe he said for fun or real.

Now, my life will have to be filled even without something...... Now studying at night and sometimes working in the day, or going outings even with all these activites, one part of my mind will still be habouring on something, and the more i think abt it, is harder to get it off my mind. Oh well, just hope tat school will reopen soon, and i will have lesser things on my mind to think of cuz my mind would be occupied haiz....................

2010-02-07T01:30:00.000-08:00

Herm just posting here b4 i sleep. Today went to jp for lunch with jemmy and hiang teck then went to town, feel upset tat the shoe i fancy does not have my size anymore haiz so saddenning. Then went to plaza sing and walk around aimless, since we have nth much to buy anyway haha.

Went to work at around 6 like tat. When i wnet in, saw edwin sitting at the pharmacy there, waiting for me to come so can brief me what to do. Then he said " Shijie arh, today got the promotion when you spend 30 dollars and above in a single receipt, you will get 20 percent off storewide, expect for selected items like: Milk powder, diapers, newspaper & magazines, promontion items and pharmacy stuff." I answered back" okay, so you wan me to work today for?" Then he said " i want you to be my promoter today with a stupid gin like this:D my reaction was like -.- okay, i thought whay need three people work today sia.

The reason he asked me to work is because he said i can talk a lot, and he wan me to use this special technique to bring up the sales today. Hiaz knew tat he have nth better for me when he asked me whether i could work today or not ass hole lor. Then me and hongshu and yitian started working and oso crapping at night me and yitian keep using the giraffe to "attack" hongshu when he do something wrong haha. First time in my whole guardian working life, i enjoyed working in guardian man. How i wished everyday got this promotion then can work with hongshu and yitian cuz we three make a very good god family working duo haha.......................

Lastly, i still misses somethings in my life, which i am thinking whether if they are doing well or not in my life. Oh well, i can't force all those stuff and i just hope tat we will get to see each other soon.........